Geezzzz

Can we finally catch a break? This post is kind of my complaint for the week (oh no, its only just begun).

I took Coast into the Dr. for his 2 year appointment today, and for some funny reason when she pulled out all of the tools necessary to check him over, I had a strange feeling that I was going to hear her tell me something I didnt necessarily want to. After a few minutes of listening to Coasts heart she told me that he has a heart murmur! WHAT????? How many freaking times have we been to the doctor and no one has ever told us that he has one?! She quickly reassured me that this kind of murmur is not something we need to worry about, and that a lot of kids develop this kind of heart murmur around his age that everyone simply "Grows out of!"

I knew what I was getting myself into when I married Nate with his heart condition n all (Aortic Stynosis with a VSD), and knew that our children could possibly have a heart condition themselves. I prayed harder than I ever had when I was pregnant with Coast, pleading with the Lord to PLEASE let Coast have a healthy heart! I thought after having a thorough ultrasound of his heart, and checking out heart condition free at birth, that we were out of the woods. I have never been so excited!

So apparently, the kind that Coast has is called "Stills Murmur", and I really have nothing to worry about because it is something he will grow out of.

All I am asking for is one little break, I feel as though we are being put through trial after trial after trial. What am I not learning, and why do they keep coming in like a destructive flash flood?! I CANT handle another heart procedure done on my husband or children, why cant it be me instead?! I am breaking down.....

I know I need to exercise a little more faith, but to be honest, I feel sometimes that I have none left. Can we PLEASE catch just one little break?!